the crimson and the blue.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

procrastinating

there seems to be less to do these days. or rather, more and more things that i simply refuse to do.

for one, i really need to do up the skin for this blog, and update the links. part of me is too lazy to even source for a new skin to copy and paste the html, and another part just can't deal with having to use somebody else's artwork, that probably thousands of people are already using.

and there's my room that i haven't cleaned for weeks. dust is all over the shop now. the songs that i wanted to learn. the photos i want to take. the friends i want to catch up with. the many many many more.

tmr's an off day, and i just have this nagging feeling, more like an intuition, that i won't get anything done.

i'm too lazy to even finish this post now. hahaha.

toooodles.

Friday, May 25, 2007

navy open house

3 performances down, 6 more to go!

come to think of it, open house may not be all that bad also. the day is pretty enjoyable, having to put in just 3 performances and the rest of the day is ours to walk around the funfair. not that the funfair is really all that exciting, in fact the games are not all that fun, and the prizes are in no way attractive to me. but the crowd is good. it is pretty fun to see ppl coming, ppl interested in what we do, and of course, the rather significant proportion of hot girls coming and gawking at us and the silly "100kg boats."

albeit all these, the one huge con is having to spend my entire weekend there. went for the first half of POTs today, and left despite wanting more because i had to book in. don't think i can make it for rehearsal tmr, which is rather bad because i havent been to the 4th week rehearsals for practically the whole of this year, and i can't track how the interns are doing this way. i do hope they compensate us with lots lots lots of off. :p

well, a carnival/open house/fun fare is mostly fun. to sum it up, in the words of a friend, "i wouldn't mind doing this if it was a weekday."

Monday, May 21, 2007

word of God speak

somedays, i just have so much that i need to say out loud. somedays, i have so much on my mind, i can't get a grip on any single one of them, nor myself.

that is when i must turn around to the only essential.

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay

Sunday, May 20, 2007

messed up

i am feeling quite messed up, and this owes a little, but just a little to the fact that i've been so busy that i haven't packed my room for quite a while.


as it now stands, the slideshow for e-campaign is going to fall short of the idea that we had at the beginning when we conceptualized the thing. it's such a disappointment. i guess i do value my brainchilds quite a lot, and when they grow up to be retarded children, i can't help but be a little sore.


and there are so many other things that i feel so useless and ineffective at. i can't help but want to just pack it up, and go home. not like i am already not so messed up that i cannot even define where home would be.


and i've been noticing some people appearing a little more blue. i can't help but think that i might indirectly be a cause for that. i really wish i could do what they'd need me to do to make it right.


i am so messed up, i think i better not say more before i blurt out something seriously bad.


anyhows, here's a thank you to the people who came to the photoshoot. it really was a pleasant experience doing the photoshoot, and you people were beautiful. :)

Saturday, May 12, 2007

i need a break!

it might be an understatement to say that i played really badly at rehearsal. it has been quite a while since i've felt so disconnected and out of sync with a band.

and i'd say that the events preceding to the weekend are the biggest factor on how i'll play during the service or rehearsal. and i can't say i had a very good week. busy-ness with ippt and boat pt, and going out with friends, i've kinda muddled up on my priorities and what is necessary to do.

can't say that i didnt have fun going out with my classmates, campmate, and jx and kai, but i must learn sometimes that fulfilling all social obligations can be very draining. and i am so totally drained right now.

and if i might say, sometimes weekends don't even feel like weekends because of all the commitments i have. and on a month with no off-days and duties on all public holidays, it isn't too much to want a good break, right?

i really need a break!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

mayday!

if april was a good month, may is the exact opposite.

just today, recieved news that i'd have to join the boat pt team, and will have to go to CNB on saturday for the navy day/commissioning of some ship. argh. why choose me of all people and choose me for both?

boat pt means a lot of extra hours spent in camp for rehearsal. and adding to that, a month of absolutely no offs because my next duty's the last day of the month, it seems i am virtually better off staying in. 'cept that i have no bed in camp so i'll have to head home to sleep.

add to that fireseed in the middle of the month, but that is probably not that bad cause i want to go.

but i want to go to sentosa on saturday! can somebody please wake those bigshots up and tell them nobody is interested in any stupid ceremonies or things like such on a saturday? any other day of the week, it'd be pretty interesting. but saturday? NO!