messed up

i am feeling quite messed up, and this owes a little, but just a little to the fact that i've been so busy that i haven't packed my room for quite a while.

as it now stands, the slideshow for e-campaign is going to fall short of the idea that we had at the beginning when we conceptualized the thing. it's such a disappointment. i guess i do value my brainchilds quite a lot, and when they grow up to be retarded children, i can't help but be a little sore.

and there are so many other things that i feel so useless and ineffective at. i can't help but want to just pack it up, and go home. not like i am already not so messed up that i cannot even define where home would be.

and i've been noticing some people appearing a little more blue. i can't help but think that i might indirectly be a cause for that. i really wish i could do what they'd need me to do to make it right.

i am so messed up, i think i better not say more before i blurt out something seriously bad.

anyhows, here's a thank you to the people who came to the photoshoot. it really was a pleasant experience doing the photoshoot, and you people were beautiful. :)