joyless pursuits
well, i didn't want to have such a negative entry as the most recent one, so i had to update something, though there really is nothing much i want to say.
the past week and this are rather slack ones. out of 14 days, only 5 workdays and 9 are offs/weekends. probably also zero meaningful ones. haven't got much on my agenda except for my driving basic theory test(which i haven't studied for), trying to sort out the contact list for the redev committee and writing a syllabus for teaching electric guitar to beginners.
writing a syllabus is hard. i always knew i wasn't one that was cut out for the education system, both as a student and teacher. i'm too lazy and disorganized for it. kind of feel like giving up now, and just teach chloe, as and what i feel like. argh. but there's better pay off if i were to put together a syllabus out of this. discipline, koon, discipline.
oh, and i've finally gotten the dvd player/sound system for my room. A DVD home theatre it says on the box, but my room's only one-sixth the size of a home. sounds pretty good, but the volume's quite something. considering that i live in a HDB flat, and the walls are somewhat pretty thin, i can never turn it up beyond 12 before it gets too loud. the thing probably goes to 50 or something, not that i've tried. it seems quite an overkill, when you think of the size of my room, and that it is only plugged in to a 14-inch tv, a flat screen one at that(that means smaller surface area doesnt it?.)
this probably sounds very materialistic and shallow, but from this purchase, i realize that there are things which can make me happy. like being in the comforts of my own room with a great cd playing on a great audio system. and listening to Jason Mraz in the Eagles' ballroom, i've sort of mustered enough courage to again, decide that there are some things that are joyless pursuits. what once gave you much joy may never work for you to give you the same joy again. and though it'll all be worth it if i can reach what i want in the end, it is highly possible that the pursuit will be in vain. and i shall be mature enough to decide at this juncture, or rightfully long ago, that i should be looking at other areas in my life to bring me the fulfilment i crave. move on to greener pastures, do things that'd bring me joy instead of thinking about a wild goose chase, and wanting something i might never have. show some love to me, and pamper myself.
out of the emo zone, if you have any DVDs or videos in a thumbdrive you want to watch on a 14-inch tv, i'm offering my room. no air-conditioning, no seats. bring your own food and drinks. i'm charging by the hour, at undisclosed rate, though there most probably will be no charge if it's a show i want to watch too.
the past week and this are rather slack ones. out of 14 days, only 5 workdays and 9 are offs/weekends. probably also zero meaningful ones. haven't got much on my agenda except for my driving basic theory test(which i haven't studied for), trying to sort out the contact list for the redev committee and writing a syllabus for teaching electric guitar to beginners.
writing a syllabus is hard. i always knew i wasn't one that was cut out for the education system, both as a student and teacher. i'm too lazy and disorganized for it. kind of feel like giving up now, and just teach chloe, as and what i feel like. argh. but there's better pay off if i were to put together a syllabus out of this. discipline, koon, discipline.
oh, and i've finally gotten the dvd player/sound system for my room. A DVD home theatre it says on the box, but my room's only one-sixth the size of a home. sounds pretty good, but the volume's quite something. considering that i live in a HDB flat, and the walls are somewhat pretty thin, i can never turn it up beyond 12 before it gets too loud. the thing probably goes to 50 or something, not that i've tried. it seems quite an overkill, when you think of the size of my room, and that it is only plugged in to a 14-inch tv, a flat screen one at that(that means smaller surface area doesnt it?.)
this probably sounds very materialistic and shallow, but from this purchase, i realize that there are things which can make me happy. like being in the comforts of my own room with a great cd playing on a great audio system. and listening to Jason Mraz in the Eagles' ballroom, i've sort of mustered enough courage to again, decide that there are some things that are joyless pursuits. what once gave you much joy may never work for you to give you the same joy again. and though it'll all be worth it if i can reach what i want in the end, it is highly possible that the pursuit will be in vain. and i shall be mature enough to decide at this juncture, or rightfully long ago, that i should be looking at other areas in my life to bring me the fulfilment i crave. move on to greener pastures, do things that'd bring me joy instead of thinking about a wild goose chase, and wanting something i might never have. show some love to me, and pamper myself.
out of the emo zone, if you have any DVDs or videos in a thumbdrive you want to watch on a 14-inch tv, i'm offering my room. no air-conditioning, no seats. bring your own food and drinks. i'm charging by the hour, at undisclosed rate, though there most probably will be no charge if it's a show i want to watch too.
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