november

november's over in a flash.. hell of a month, gone through a lot..

first half of the month was A's.. finished on 16th, had a few days break and then it was work, work, work till now. i don't know what i'm working so hard for man. gotten enough for my missions trip, so now just working a bit here n there to earn tt little bit extra for spending..

well, i'm not complaining today coz the new job i have is much more fun. talking to customers, and colleagues is fun over at the suntec job.. for my first day today, was there for 6 hours, and spent an hour at lunch break, probably 30 minutes with customers and the rest of the time talking to this nice girl, jean foo.

so i'm probably working like 8 or 9 days at suntec.. not much money in it, but it seems a pretty fun job to do for now. i plan to try out more vocations, just to see what it is like. :) and i cant believe how silly i was to have been whining so much. life aint all dark if u look at it know. even in the darkest place, there is the eye that is seeing it.

and yea, half a month after A's, been here and there and done a lot. feels rather grown up now. hehe koon's turning 18, finally. at least this year, i feel more on time..

so on we go to december!


(i'm sorry my posts are getting lousy. i just can't write since i am now no longer in school. and i am illiterate.)

oh how grossly mismatched the thermostat seems. but if not for the incompatibility, it's function would cease.

so amazing indeed

supposed to go to sentosa today.. got to habourfront, and the guys said we're not going anymore. it was raining, damn. for the second time, our trip to sentosa got rained up. this time, we didn't even get on the island.

but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. good, good, good, good, good. :D

ok, because we didn't go sentosa anymore, the rest of them decided to go paradiz to play lan. i just hung around the area, because i have a distaste for lan. played too much lan when i was younger i think. so went to parklane, asked about music books for ear training, then to city music, where this very nice dude demo-ed to me how to set up a home recording studio. all u need is this 200 bucks piece of gadget! cool huh? sounds are good too. i may get that so i can record at home, but then it aint portable, as in cant use in a live setting. the one that can be used in a live setting is about 600+. oh wells, see how. if suddenly got enuff money again, maybe get that.

links:

http://line6.com/toneport/ (200 bucks plus)
http://line6.com/podxtlive/ (600 bucks plus)

ok, anyways, after that met up with an fu to go get the guitar repaired at guitar gallery. it is perhaps, repairable at a reasonable cost. so to remember that i now owe an fu 20bucks(because gg didnt accept nets), and nice ben 50, who gave me money to pay for the deposit first.

and i got a call! from this persis, to go down to suntec for an interview/briefing at suntec. (thanks rachel!) went down there, since was going to penin with daryl anyway. got tested on present wrapping, which she said was ok despite a very shoddy job. and yea, more or less have that job too i think. just that i can't work on a lot of days due to camp and missions.

was thinking about it, like how am i going to deal with all my commitments in church, and jobs. then i remembered why i had to work so hard this hols. for missions! need the buckeroos to pay for my missions, and God has provided indeed. so amazing indeed. so the river really did part after i stepped into it.

and, so from tmr till next week, it'll be the office job, then starting from tues next week, the suntec one. oh, prom's next week too.

but then, really there is just one person whom i wish i could spend one evening with. if only that person's willing/free la.

oh yea, please come for badminton tourney ok? its 2 dec, afternoon. tag my board if u wanna sign up, i'll get u signed up :)

till i see you all darlings again, God bless!

Blue- Guilty

ok, i'm tired from towning, going for missions courses, n everything. i wish i could go chill somewhere tonight. ahhh, haha. but it was a really fun few days!

ok this is what i'll be up to for next week:

first up, sentosa! with the class, though i'm kinda tired tonight. oh yea, thanks an fu for offering to bring the guitar down to parklane for me, coz i could only go in the morning and daryl couldn't. thanks a lot bro! but yea, me at sentosa with a tummy aint a pretty sight. haha.

second, a job! starting on tuesday, for a few days only. expecting to rake up about half the amount for missions from this. :) i still need more jobs ppl. btw, thanks rachel! will call the guy when i'm nearing the end of my current one.

third, back to the weekends, with rehearsal, mission training and all. see my wonderful church friends again! and i must get my prom attire. oh yea, leaders retreat too. rather packed.


i'm too tired to write more. don't really feel myself tonight, or don't really feel like who i want to be. ok here's a song i heard in a shop somewhere today. just, true la, huh? :)

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime

Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy
I never wanted to live a lie

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
And right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now of all I have to say

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty

2day's post.

just heard of some shocking stuff. my God, what have we become? i kinda wished we were back in those days when we were perhaps a little less popular, but a little more real.

damn it, damn it, damn it. i can't believe i'm placing my friend at fault for this. i still feel its wrong man.

ok, it doesn't really concern me. now, on to other stuff.

first up, my aunt hasn't called me rgding the job i'm supposed to get for next week. please pray for tt, k ppl? i really need that job and the few bucks so that i can afford to go for missions. and i desperately need income, so if you have any deal for temp jobs, roadshows, toyboy, clown, puppeteer or whatever, please come for me. any job will do! ok and i better get off my ass and start searching for employment. perhaps i can scour the papers or the streets. great, now koon joins the rank of the unemployed.

spent the past two(?) days bumming around. i can't really keep track of my days nowadays man. ok, lets see. i've managed to pack all of my jc books into a box, and clear up my room a little to get ready for some repainting. i want a lime green room, with one black wall. and then my bro's bed will finally be moved to the computer room, and i'll have more space for myself. i intend to have a sofa so that i can have ppl over, and a corner for all my guitar/music stuffs. then i've been down to peninsula today, and went for cg. cg feels a little weird today. too little people? aniwaes, oasis seems promising, but we do need to see plenty of publicity soon. same goes for badminton..

oh yes, if anybody is interested in joining an amateur competition(heck, even i could qualify to join and stand a chance of winning. heheh.) it's on 2nd dec, friday 12.30 pm to 6 pm. great prizes to be won! i think it includes free tix to a certain very fun and love-ly camp. the competition's at toa paoh cc, open to boys and girls, so far haven't heard of an in between category. below 23? not sure about the age but if u read this blog, it is highly possible u're young enough to join. :) p.s: it is a very special day, and if u do need a reason to come, it could to do me a big big favour. :D

don't know if some of the guys are gonna come over for supper tonight. an hour ago they said they were, now waiting for their call. i feel fat now man. this afternoon i was feeling small and wussy. all coz i weigh like 65 kg now. before i came to jc, i was about 60, then hit 70 during judo season when i had to bulk up. now i'm 65, i wonder if i am too skinny or fat. should lose weight or gain mass? also should i get a haircut? should i dye my hair brown or blue or red? certain times when i'm bored i'll start thinking about how i look. haha!

is it ok if i write a line here to say i miss someone very much? ok i miss someone very much, though there is nothing noteworthy between us.

just random, oops. :)

end of A's

finished A's today! had a 3 paper day, and now the entire memory of A's is kinda a blur. i can't even remember what papers i did for today. :) heh.

well, if i can get to uni, it is through God's grace. glory be.

so today, finished papers about 5.30p.m, went to town with the classmates till about 10 then headed home. ate, walked around, , shopped, walked in the rain, enjoyed christmas lights. this year's lights are good. i like the deco this year. and with the music and carols on the street, simply beautiful. every christmas i wish for a special someone to walk the street with, but every year i don't have one. Lord, how about one this year? oh wells, if not, friends will do. :)

came up with a pick up line today. "if i go to the north pole, i'd bring you along. because you are damn hot." hahaahahaaha. koon's lousy at pickup lines, koon's lousy with girls. that's why koon is single and desperate.

sometimes i keep telling ppl around me i am desperate and emo,(right, eric? and joshua and marcus and derek.) that i think i am so stupid sometimes. i think i irritate myself. haha. and, i am not really despo la. i know who's the perfect girl, i can't get her, and that's that la. in any case, i don't exactly scour the streets and look for the next cute thing to try to pick up. not that despo yet. haha.

don't know what to do with my holidays, yet. well, i need to earn some money, for my sky rocketing expenses throught the holiday, play more guitar so that i can get to La-salle music tech if i fail A's and spend some time blessing those around me. oh yes, i am desperately seeking for temp jobs, so if u have a vacancy, do get me ok?


and finally, ran into plenty of ppl in town. made me realize how myopic i am sometimes when it comes to friends. there are so many of those who have drifted far, or approached and then veered off again. maybe it is wrong to be only concerned with those close by, and some that i want to be with. ok ran into magdalene, nicole tham(i didnt know she was working at cafe cartel.) and jiankai. a weird assortment huh? haha.

ok that's all for now! a happy holidays to all, and date me if u can ;)

Prelude

Hi, last post before launching this blog officially. yes, it is a standard template you can get when you create a new blog from blogger, yes i didn't put in much effort into creating a swashbuckling artistic whatever whatever template. (actually yes, i am pretty much totally html illiterate.) ;p

ok so here are notes on what to do.
1. add a tagboard.
2. learn how to put up pictures, and put up some pictures.
3. garner plenty of readership, so i can be the next mr miyagi or spg or spb. (not really, i don't really read their blogs. i' m more a friend's blog reader. so i read my friend's blogs only.)

and just for the record, how things are going on in my life, so that i'll know what life was like when the blog was originally started.

currently in the middle of my A's, two days and 4 papers to the end! not very optimistic of my chances in making it to to uni, but i trust in the Lord to bless me as He so desires. :) don't be mistaken though, i want very, very much to make it into uni. i know ppl have been telling me it is not the only way, not the only paths, it's only a cert. there are other experiences blah blah. but i do want to get that uni experience. yeaps.

and i am not serving very much in church now too. do very much want to be serving more, but had my exams to deal with this year. i just bungled around and screwed up my year though. oh wells. now i am regretting not studying, not serving and just wasting my time.

am very much in love with Jesus Christ. even though i my behaviour is not always exemplary, i do try to live my life for Him, as much as i can. yes it's tough, yes i fail. but do believe me, it's the only reason i find worth living for. if you do so desire to know more about Him, i am one of the many hotlines u can dial. :)

and here are the things upcoming in my life.

november
19 missions training
27,28 leader's retreat. (second year as potential. i am rather potentail but no practical energy)
29 prom night - oce-anus. now if only someone would tell me what it is supposed to mean.

december
2 yf badminton competition. what a day to hold it on, man.
13-16 With Love Camp!
21-26 Thailand missions.


ok that's how my hols will go for now. and the end of the -ve 1 post.


cheers!

Godly men are not exceptionally blessed or stupid to live a life of faith. it is the willingness to see eye to eye with God that keeps them strong.
















just a random test pic. ;)

new beginnings

hi, first post for the new blog. it is funny how many new beginnings i have had in this life. i can never stop screwing up.

moving on, i am definitely not going to have a black blog this time. why see my life in a depressive manic hue?

blogging's a form of writing, not whining. i've got to stop the whining man.

and lets keep rocking for Christ!