drager ear.

i'm contemplating setting up a new blog for photos only, cause photos causes my blog to take way too long to upload. however considering the lack of readers here, setting up a second blog might be unnecessary since there isn't an audience anyway.

sermons speak the truth. the bible tells the truth. i hear the truth. but it's so hard to live the truth. it's not disbelief.. i guess its more a lack of conviction.

it's been quite a weekend anyway. only got to book out saturday afternoon, but managed to meet up with some dear friends. but guess the fun was spoilt by the stupid drager ear and my tiredness. somebody should realize diving is rather straining, and really, they should limit us to diving only 3 days a week or something. and especially, ban O2 diving on bookout days. heheh.

drager ear is when the oxygen in your middle ear is absorbed by your flesh, thereby creating a low pressure space in that cavity. when we dive on O2, our ears are saturated with O2, so when all the oxygen is absorbed, you get a vacuum there. but you wont get a vacuum if you keep clearing your ear and balancing the pressure. problem is you cant do that in your sleep. so divers wake up with painful blocked ears and are temporarily half-deaf.

and this is just one of the things we have to endure. sufficiently compensated by the 25obucks diving allowance? nay, says me.

if there are any old friends reading this, lets find some time to catch up yeah? i kinda want to find out who the old me was. and i wonder how you all have turned out. :)

gunnin' the rose

i kinda ran into this at gramophone last weekend, and i couldn't ignore it.














so i succumbed and got it even though i had all the songs in my com. some shots of some shots from the booklet in the album. (can you call that an album sleeve? since sleeves belongs on shirts and books, why not a cd?)


them















izzy stradlin















slash














axl rose















rock.

yummy cha!

went to yum cha today.. here are some pics taken with my new toy. :)
















the poster that was above me.






















the ns dudes that went to conquer yum cha.














the table as it was, before the fight started.
















battlefield!




















and we proceed on to the aftermath.
























HoW(heroes of war) the next up and coming gay boyband.

and that's all. here's a pic that i think turned out pretty well. :)
















thats all folks! i might start another blog just for photoblogging. but don't have the time and i don't know if its worth the effort. goodnight starshine.

4, four, four, 4 days of freedom.

i'm out for the weekends/holidays! thank God for Singapore's cultural diversity. the festival of lights and hari raya rolling in together means 4 days of off for the nsfs. :)

and so from now(or last night) till tuesday night, i'm gonna do all that i want, and have lots of fun. the good thing about ns is during holidays, you have nothing to worry about. but then again, the quantity of holidays we do get is pathetic.



the beautiful and talented people in the world. i want one for myself. or maybe just to be one of them.

nothing again.

i don't really have anything to blog about.. just giving a few types here so that the blog wouldn't be so dead.

went back to cj's open house yesterday. met up with the ex-classmates. and jolly, i do miss them a lot. somehow, spending the few hours with them yesterday made me feel very much loved. guess now that we're all moving on in different lives, the friendships feels all the more precious.

today's sermon was about being satisfied with where you are. no it wasn't, but the part that was most applicable to me was that. so how much is enough? "just a little more." and you will wind up spending your life in wanting and never be done with it. the satisfaction will never come.

and pastor talked about the realities today. it's true, being christian doesnt mean you'll be spared from the trials of the world. and i guess though i may have had a bad turn of luck in one particular area of my life, i shouldnt be blaming God for it. maybe it isnt all that fair or whatever, but it's not about that. God is just and He'll deal out accordingly. that of course means there's the good and the bad just as they come. and then there are spiritual realities that you must never forget. things like we have a God who shared humanity with us, who understands, and who loves you and me immensely.

and i'm so guilty of something right now. God forgive me.

walking dead

gosh i feel like i'm a walking dead. reading back the previous 5 entries or so, i realize that my mind is in shambles. i've never been a really smart kid, but now i'm not merely stupid. i'm stupid and confused.

i don't really talk that much anymore. neither do i smile that much. nor do i care much. did i use to be like this? nope, i don't think so. blame it on emotional distress or whatever excuses i can find. the truth is i am just pessimistic and too lazy to get off my ass which i've fallen off.

i never tell my friends i love them enough. i never tell my family i love them enough. i never do tell myself i love myself enough too. probably one day i'll be old and regretting that i grew up to be such a loveless and cynical old asshole. and then i'll ponder and honestly admit that at each stage of life, i had a choice. i could have chosen how i'll grow up to be. and at that time, i'd regret having made all the wrong choices.

no i do not want to get there. choose wisely while you can, kids. the only time when you can't choose is already over. this moment, the next and the future are all yours to do what you want with. and i repeat, choose wisely.