here are 2 songs that caught my ear while i was listening to class 95 yesterday. blogging it here so that i don't have to look through youtube to hear them. enjoy!
it's not just because it's valentines' and i'm dateless; i might attribute some of this enormous void i'm feeling/filling to being jobless too.
my parents are saying that it'd be ok if to get money from them if i do not find a job just yet, but i'm really trying to avoid that. somehow despite being their son, after 2 years and 2 months of independence, getting money from them doesn't come naturally anymore.
job offering 6 dollars per hour aren't as attractive as they used to be. maybe because that was the minimum i'd go for 2 years ago, and partly because of inflation, partly because of experience i feel that i should be valued more than 6 dollars an hour.
i'm thinking if i should follow through on that commercial diving job should the company call back. the pay isn't as fantastic at the start, but it is definitely the highest offer i have right now. still, it is just a 6 month vacation job, is it really worth putting life and limb at risk to earn that extra bit of money that i don't really need? furthermore, i wouldn't call it relevant experience for my future field of work.
on the other hand, am i really sure that the university place i have right now is the right career that i want to pursue? honestly, i think that from the point that i start on the course on, i'd scarcely have a chance at opportunities in other fields. who am i to make a judgement right now, that mass comm is the right career for me when i haven't got any experience to base that on? besides, working on a dive team is something i've grown to love a fair bit, i'd say that i miss that kind of life a fair bit.
i guess things would seem a lot better if i am thinking clearly.or if i just surrender everything to God. but right now, i guess ii can't truthfully say that i've been doing a lot of either lately.
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." -2 Timothy 1:7
it is very worrying, how i've sent out 6 online resumes and only gotten zero replies so far. it is also very worrying how that stupid agency, recruit express is being so unreliable and being such a rip-off and only offering me rather low paying and nothing that i want.
looks like i'm gonna have to beg for pocket money real soon.
and i just have the craziest of urges to look for a temp maritime/diving job. i'm gonna miss working by/near,in the sea,
i was writing something about ording, but it ended up being so long and i couldn't finish it.
for now, i'm just gonna say that no matter the whining and all, i am gonna miss ndu quite a bit.
i just love this song a lot at the moment.
breaking benjamin - forget it
It's a crime you let it happen to me Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose But my mind and all the things I wanted
Everytime I get it I throw it away It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay By the time I lose it I'm not afraid I'm alive but I can Surely fake it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me You're the part of me that I don't wanna see
Forget it
There's a place I see you follow me Just a taste of all that might come to be I'm alone but holding breath you can breathe To question every answer counted
Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way
Forget it
Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way
It's a crime you let it happen to me Out of mind, I love it, easy to please Nevermind, forget it, just memories On a page inside a spiral notebook
Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way I can live forever here
Forget it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me You're a part of me that I don't wanna see
