void
it's not just because it's valentines' and i'm dateless; i might attribute some of this enormous void i'm feeling/filling to being jobless too.
my parents are saying that it'd be ok if to get money from them if i do not find a job just yet, but i'm really trying to avoid that. somehow despite being their son, after 2 years and 2 months of independence, getting money from them doesn't come naturally anymore.
job offering 6 dollars per hour aren't as attractive as they used to be. maybe because that was the minimum i'd go for 2 years ago, and partly because of inflation, partly because of experience i feel that i should be valued more than 6 dollars an hour.
i'm thinking if i should follow through on that commercial diving job should the company call back. the pay isn't as fantastic at the start, but it is definitely the highest offer i have right now. still, it is just a 6 month vacation job, is it really worth putting life and limb at risk to earn that extra bit of money that i don't really need? furthermore, i wouldn't call it relevant experience for my future field of work.
on the other hand, am i really sure that the university place i have right now is the right career that i want to pursue? honestly, i think that from the point that i start on the course on, i'd scarcely have a chance at opportunities in other fields. who am i to make a judgement right now, that mass comm is the right career for me when i haven't got any experience to base that on? besides, working on a dive team is something i've grown to love a fair bit, i'd say that i miss that kind of life a fair bit.
i guess things would seem a lot better if i am thinking clearly.or if i just surrender everything to God. but right now, i guess ii can't truthfully say that i've been doing a lot of either lately.
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."
-2 Timothy 1:7
my parents are saying that it'd be ok if to get money from them if i do not find a job just yet, but i'm really trying to avoid that. somehow despite being their son, after 2 years and 2 months of independence, getting money from them doesn't come naturally anymore.
job offering 6 dollars per hour aren't as attractive as they used to be. maybe because that was the minimum i'd go for 2 years ago, and partly because of inflation, partly because of experience i feel that i should be valued more than 6 dollars an hour.
i'm thinking if i should follow through on that commercial diving job should the company call back. the pay isn't as fantastic at the start, but it is definitely the highest offer i have right now. still, it is just a 6 month vacation job, is it really worth putting life and limb at risk to earn that extra bit of money that i don't really need? furthermore, i wouldn't call it relevant experience for my future field of work.
on the other hand, am i really sure that the university place i have right now is the right career that i want to pursue? honestly, i think that from the point that i start on the course on, i'd scarcely have a chance at opportunities in other fields. who am i to make a judgement right now, that mass comm is the right career for me when i haven't got any experience to base that on? besides, working on a dive team is something i've grown to love a fair bit, i'd say that i miss that kind of life a fair bit.
i guess things would seem a lot better if i am thinking clearly.or if i just surrender everything to God. but right now, i guess ii can't truthfully say that i've been doing a lot of either lately.
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."
-2 Timothy 1:7
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