will you?

thought about A's when the bus passed by cj today. weeks later, i cannot sit on the bus and watch as the school gates drift by. one day i'll have to get off the bus, walk through those gates again, and face what i'm getting in return for what i've put in the past years.

and i'm dreading it. the crushing feeling of losing any hope i have in my future just leaves me feeling, well.. crushed.

i wonder if i should extend. supposed to tell siti tmr, but i think i'll need a few more days. it is a rather slack job with ok money, though i've gotten lots more money from other jobs before. but the money i get for the amount of work i actually have to do is pretty worth it actually. it is just the weekends problem, which siti promises me that i will not have to do weekend shifts. need to, need to start talking to more ppl at work. my rival promoters, coz this can get dreary if i dont have anybody to crap with.

and i am beginning to love walking over to borders for a quick read during my break. especially since i'm trying to eat less now.

thanks here to mr soong who came all the way down to town from wherever he was. finally got my t-shirt so my mum will stop nagging. the t-shirt's really ugly by the way, with an ugly drawing on it, like a child's scrawling. but i like it. hahaa.

and i went up the wrong escalator at wheelock today. you know why? i saw someone coming down from it, and naturally assumed the escalator to be the link between the floor above and this, and so just naturally went to it. how foolish, when i am headed upwards.

and just a few minutes ago, i was thinking about some thing again.

will you ever forgive me?