blockleave. not.

had a "long" weekend.. booked out friday night. grateful? perhaps not.

while the rest of the bmt boys are having their block leave, i'll have to book in tonight. our syllabus is slightly longer than that of the tekong ppl, with an added basic naval knowledge component. i wonder why they couldnt just squeeze it in earlier so we could also finish bmt with the rest of them.

and while the rest of the bmt boys have reached a milestone in their ns life - POP, ours is so downplayed that it is of nof significance at all. for one, we'll just be having a simple ceremony, where even parents will not be invited and then we have to waste 4 hours at some probably sucky saf place for a cohesion.. that is a function where we supposedly go to socialize with each other. not as if we have not made friends through this 10 weeks of shit or it is very interesting to be partying with hundreds of guys. and they tell us bmt is nothing at all.

probably the only comfort i can give myself is by thinking that if i can stay in course and pass out, i'll be part of the elites. but how much of me wants that?

spent saturday at bb camp, which is supposed to be our cg oasis. was quite pissed over some stuff, but i guess i cant expect everyone to subscribe to my theology. the thing ended pretty good though, thank God.

then had church today and then went to kai's hse for steamboat. totally forgotten how to get there. oh wells, it was a lazy sunday afternoon but i'm glad for the company of friends.

have so much thinking going on in my head.. about bgr again. damn i will be silent. goodbye.