brutal
life is brutal. it is like a raging bulge of muscles driving on like a train, ugly, tough and unstoppable, reeking of a humid stench and induces terror in the eyes of the beholder. mere humans are helpless against it, and can only try to keep up, or get left behind.
but it does not move at a blistering pace. life is manageable.
you'll only fall behind if you stop walking.
i am still undecided on what i should do in uni. currently, first choice would be comm studies, but ntu is freaking far away, and unglam(heeheheh). but it is unlikely i can get in with my results, so second choice is very impt as well. thinking of either business or soci, but i don't know which one i'll like better. i'll enjoy the thrill of a business career, but soci could bring me nearer to a meaningful life where i work to improve the life of others and not just merely myself. but i don't know if i want to have a thrilling life for myself or serve others! maybe i can do both huh?
i am immensely interested in a career in media, or maybe PR. don't know if there is a marketing course or smthing like that. i'd go for that. or maybe i can be a pilot, but the loser me didnt get asked to go for interview. damn damn damn.
anyhows, worship today was rather good. think the band played rather well together, and even though it wasn't anything really outstanding or what, it did feel pretty alright. loved it. i think sometimes its the people you play with that makes the difference. seriously, if it was a band where people don't usually even talk to each other, how much spiritual bonding is there between them, and without that spiritual unity, it is hard to bring a congregation to worship God.
the church's ibanez is pretty cool. it is getting a little easier to manage, and i love the way it makes lead parts stand out. just that i kinda underestimated that part and got a little shock when going into the instrumental for 'my best friend', and messed up. haha. but still, i can't get a nice crunch/dist tone out of it, like that for 'my best friend' again. but beez could do it! one day i'll be able to. maybe it is all in the hands.
got a tough week ahead, and i'm gonna try being positive about it. monday to friday, will be working a lot. really looking forward to the weekend. ahhhhh. i'm kinda praying for God to show me the ONE soon. i want my fairytale soon too! (someone would know what i'm talking about.) but it seems very unlikely, just that i believe in a miraculous God. especially with the many restricions i place. first it was cannot be from school, then more recently added, cannot be from work and cannot be from church. gosh, where else do i even meet any girls? hey! i'll meet her on the street! or maybe on the train! or maybe standing beside singapore river when i am going home! bloody sarcasm. God you show me lah. hurrrrhurha.
i am despo.
but it does not move at a blistering pace. life is manageable.
you'll only fall behind if you stop walking.
i am still undecided on what i should do in uni. currently, first choice would be comm studies, but ntu is freaking far away, and unglam(heeheheh). but it is unlikely i can get in with my results, so second choice is very impt as well. thinking of either business or soci, but i don't know which one i'll like better. i'll enjoy the thrill of a business career, but soci could bring me nearer to a meaningful life where i work to improve the life of others and not just merely myself. but i don't know if i want to have a thrilling life for myself or serve others! maybe i can do both huh?
i am immensely interested in a career in media, or maybe PR. don't know if there is a marketing course or smthing like that. i'd go for that. or maybe i can be a pilot, but the loser me didnt get asked to go for interview. damn damn damn.
anyhows, worship today was rather good. think the band played rather well together, and even though it wasn't anything really outstanding or what, it did feel pretty alright. loved it. i think sometimes its the people you play with that makes the difference. seriously, if it was a band where people don't usually even talk to each other, how much spiritual bonding is there between them, and without that spiritual unity, it is hard to bring a congregation to worship God.
the church's ibanez is pretty cool. it is getting a little easier to manage, and i love the way it makes lead parts stand out. just that i kinda underestimated that part and got a little shock when going into the instrumental for 'my best friend', and messed up. haha. but still, i can't get a nice crunch/dist tone out of it, like that for 'my best friend' again. but beez could do it! one day i'll be able to. maybe it is all in the hands.
got a tough week ahead, and i'm gonna try being positive about it. monday to friday, will be working a lot. really looking forward to the weekend. ahhhhh. i'm kinda praying for God to show me the ONE soon. i want my fairytale soon too! (someone would know what i'm talking about.) but it seems very unlikely, just that i believe in a miraculous God. especially with the many restricions i place. first it was cannot be from school, then more recently added, cannot be from work and cannot be from church. gosh, where else do i even meet any girls? hey! i'll meet her on the street! or maybe on the train! or maybe standing beside singapore river when i am going home! bloody sarcasm. God you show me lah. hurrrrhurha.
i am despo.
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