the greatest romance

most of the time, we run round in circles looking for our own romances. boy-girl, human-material, or whatever perverse relationships we can come up with. and we forget the greatest romance ever, God's.

my mind's been very cluttered recently, with lots of stuff. mostly with ns, the boys in camp, demo theory, dive theory, friends leaving. honestly, i've been waking up with a frenzied mind in the mornings a lot, with my thoughts circling, going round and round some seemingly insignificant matters. or even just words.

cg on sat was refreshing. can't go into details of it all, because my writing honestly suck big time now. but the session was on bgr, and what hit me the most wasn't boy-girl-relationship but boy-God-relationship. stephanie said something about our hearts growing cold to God, and i guess that's what i'm going through. haven't been really focused on my relationship with God, and haven't been living like a christian man should.

we are imperfect in many ways, but there is one way by which we are all forgiven. Jesus.

and He is the one way we can make a strong convicted change in our lives. i need that now.