hell beckons
in about half an hour, i'll be leaving home for camp. then it's preparation time, some old seal talk and then the pizza party. afterwhich, they'll put us to bed. and we wait for the first crack of the thunderflash. and hellweek begins.
it's gonna be the toughest one week of my life. the programme is made to break us down physically, then work at breaking us down mentally. it is a time when all the training i had the past 8 week in physical phase, will be tested on, but more importantly, it is a time when all the christianity i have lived will be called to trial.
pple, if you happen to read this blog within the next one week, please say a prayer for me. i really do need that. not so much that i'll be spared from suffering or there will be opportunities for me to get out of the programme. i do not want to fall out, i really want to make it through this. pray that i will never lose sight of God, and that is all i need, and all that i ask for.
One thing i ask of the Lord, this is what i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in his temple.
- Psalms 27:4 (in a psalm talking about bad times arising around the psalmist.)
couldn't have asked for a better block leave pre-hellweek. thank God some things worked out, some things didn't and some things worked out another way. to all the friends i did meet up with, i will hold your memories dear. hellweek aint half as bad as hell because for one thing, it ends and for another, when you are in hell, all friends are gone. for those whom i didn't, especially on sat night cause i wanted to be home early, you'll see me when i get out of hellweek. and i'll be thinking of what your friendship had been to me throughout all the times of my life too. and for someone else, i asked if you were happy that day. you said you were and that is enough to make everything alright.
one last thing..
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?
- Psalms 27:1
it's gonna be the toughest one week of my life. the programme is made to break us down physically, then work at breaking us down mentally. it is a time when all the training i had the past 8 week in physical phase, will be tested on, but more importantly, it is a time when all the christianity i have lived will be called to trial.
pple, if you happen to read this blog within the next one week, please say a prayer for me. i really do need that. not so much that i'll be spared from suffering or there will be opportunities for me to get out of the programme. i do not want to fall out, i really want to make it through this. pray that i will never lose sight of God, and that is all i need, and all that i ask for.
One thing i ask of the Lord, this is what i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in his temple.
- Psalms 27:4 (in a psalm talking about bad times arising around the psalmist.)
couldn't have asked for a better block leave pre-hellweek. thank God some things worked out, some things didn't and some things worked out another way. to all the friends i did meet up with, i will hold your memories dear. hellweek aint half as bad as hell because for one thing, it ends and for another, when you are in hell, all friends are gone. for those whom i didn't, especially on sat night cause i wanted to be home early, you'll see me when i get out of hellweek. and i'll be thinking of what your friendship had been to me throughout all the times of my life too. and for someone else, i asked if you were happy that day. you said you were and that is enough to make everything alright.
one last thing..
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?
- Psalms 27:1
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