bugger me.
so i've been eating a lot over the past few days. i think the 5kg i've lost is all back already.. but it'll all be ok when work starts again, and i can not eat again.
but it's been a good 3 days without work. i guess free days are good only when you dont have too many of them.
worship retreat was pretty good, though again i was pretty off from discussion. just sat there and thought stupid thoughts and think everybody was just being really anal. hahaaha. i'm not a really good retreat-goer. if got a problem, there are 364 other days to solve it, why leave everything till a retreat?
and i realize my weeks till very long later are all packed. rehearsals, work and all. and i don't know if i can go to class chalet for most days.. so many things to do, and all i enjoy. God has been pretty good to me, and i really pray that i'll have the strength to live and be blessed. :)
playing in paradox and playing in worship team both seems rather different. both have their strengths la.. and i realize i have become pretty much a different kind of guitar player. i can't really hold down some stuffs well, and some stuffs i can. wanna play more! and i really do need to learn how to play an acoustic, if only i had an acoustic guitar or someone to teach me.
and it really is kinda sucky to know that it doesn't mean a thing to you at all. if only it did, i'd be ecstatic, if it isn't i cannot be too bitchy about it either. you don't know what it is like to be the one who is so crazy over someone when you are always the one being chased. it gets really tough sometimes. not that you're not worth the trouble though. :) i don't know, i am being bitchy. bugger me. but since i have already surrendered it all to God, there can only be one response.
Lord, blessed be Your name.
but it's been a good 3 days without work. i guess free days are good only when you dont have too many of them.
worship retreat was pretty good, though again i was pretty off from discussion. just sat there and thought stupid thoughts and think everybody was just being really anal. hahaaha. i'm not a really good retreat-goer. if got a problem, there are 364 other days to solve it, why leave everything till a retreat?
and i realize my weeks till very long later are all packed. rehearsals, work and all. and i don't know if i can go to class chalet for most days.. so many things to do, and all i enjoy. God has been pretty good to me, and i really pray that i'll have the strength to live and be blessed. :)
playing in paradox and playing in worship team both seems rather different. both have their strengths la.. and i realize i have become pretty much a different kind of guitar player. i can't really hold down some stuffs well, and some stuffs i can. wanna play more! and i really do need to learn how to play an acoustic, if only i had an acoustic guitar or someone to teach me.
and it really is kinda sucky to know that it doesn't mean a thing to you at all. if only it did, i'd be ecstatic, if it isn't i cannot be too bitchy about it either. you don't know what it is like to be the one who is so crazy over someone when you are always the one being chased. it gets really tough sometimes. not that you're not worth the trouble though. :) i don't know, i am being bitchy. bugger me. but since i have already surrendered it all to God, there can only be one response.
Lord, blessed be Your name.
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